You Are the Sunshine of My Life- Lisa Ono

my late night affair with my creative journal turned out to be in vain, because mr shan has extended the dateline.

no matter that i'm currently feeling worn out, utterly exhausted, yo me cansado.
i brought my little ray of sunshine out for macdonald's and ice-cream today.



so when we were eating, i observed her, and it was clear how much she has matured. we carried on a proper conversation, talking about how she liked her food, about our other cousins, about our family, our grandmother... and imagine all these taking place between a 6-year-old and an 18-year-old.

in the midst of our talk, macdonald's staff gave out free balloons and my little sunshine was, without a doubt, offered one. :) other kids jumped and had this childish sort of excitement, but she simply took it and smiled. when she found the balloon to be hassle to eating, she decided to stuff the balloon beneath the table while other kids insisted on showing it off.

sometimes, i feel like she's a lot more grown-up than i am. the way she spreads her tissue nicely on the table so that she can clean her hands after eating; how she makes sure i'm not disturbed when i'm resting, or simply her affections often makes me want to reflect on myself.

i worry quite a bit about her future, the world being so harsh already and all. but mother often reminds me that she's, after all, not my kid. she seems so innocent, yet she has already dealt with having a bastard for a father, her endless popularity with boys (my grandma had to fend off an incessant caller) and that tantrums don't bring you anything at the end of the day.

I blogged @ 8:36 PM